Here’s me talking about the same thing five years ago, when my sobriety turned old enough to drive (but not while intoxicated).
If you need help, and sometimes we all do, there are resources available.
SAMHSA’s National Helpline: 1-800-662-HELP (4357)
SAMHSA’s National Helpline is a free, confidential, 24/7, 365-day-a-year treatment referral and information service (in English and Spanish) for individuals and families facing mental and/or substance use disorders.
SAMHSA – Substance Abuse and Mental Health Services Administration
I don’t like to give advice, but I will say this: Don’t beat yourself up. Don’t look at every setback or slip as an absolute failure. Take each day as it comes, and remember that over time, those days add up.